God Is My Everything!!!

I wrote a poem about what it means to me to have God in my life.  In this poem, I declare who God is through His love and grace. I tell about how He has changed my life forever.

It is called, “God Is My Everything.”

WITHOUT GOD…
I would lose hope and live in defeat.
I would never see victories in my life, because I would not
have the strength to complete the journey.
My flesh would always get the best of me.
I would never know what true love felt like.
Life would be a wreck, and I would live of this world lost and alone.

WITH GOD…
I have hope and live in victory!
I see miracles every day!
I experience love that cannot be explained!
I enjoy life to the fullest
I see beauty in everything I touch!

GOD HELPS ME TO…
Listen more and talk less
Love more and judge less
Trust more and worry less

GOD…
Is like no other!
I am honored that He calls me His Child!

THE GOD OF THE UNIVERSE…
Knows me by name!
Loves me unconditionally!
Cares about my every need!
Sees my dreams!

AND, NO MATTER WHAT, GOD IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME!
I am nothing without Him!
He is my everything!
It is because of Him that I can get up every morning,
and live in hope that, with God, I can conquer
whatever comes my way!

NOW, THAT IS SOMETHING TO SHOUT ABOUT!!!

Thankful For Struggle

God did not always give me an easy road to walk on in life.  He allowed struggle but He always showed up to guide me in the right direction.

I did not speak my first word until I was three years old.  I struggled in school to comprehend what I was reading.  I was held back in first grade to catch up with everyone else my age.  Through time, I came to enjoy school and loved learning new things.  At an early age, I taught myself how to study and do well in school.  I was an A and B student and succeeded in college with the highest honors.  I did not just conquer my struggle but I learned from it.  I put my all into being a good student and making good grades and from that I learned how to persevere when I wanted to give up.

Simple things in life did not come easy for me as well.  A simple task for someone else seemed like a nightmare for me.  Things never went right and accomplishments took longer to achieve.  I have always had to wait for my dreams to come true but God has taught me a lot through the waiting period.

I have learned that the wait is worth it in the end.  I do not take life for granted but find blessings and hope in everything that God gives me.  I appreciate the small and big accompishments in my life giving God the glory.

God has helped me to slow down and realize life is not about how fast you get there but to enjoy the journey.  There are life lessons in the journey.  I have learned how to trust God with my life and know the outcome will be bigger than I have ever imagined as long as God is in control of the situation. Life is not about my deadlines but God’s!  It is not even about my standards but His!  Praise God that He loves me enough to say NO to my timing and continues to work in my favor for His timing!  His way is flawless in every way!

Through life’s struggles, I am a stronger person for living a life that did not come easy.  I don’t give up when life gets hard.  God built up my character and endurance to face struggle head-on and not get defeated.  God has given me His courage to face every battle in my life.

When people tell me maybe God is trying to stop you from moving forward because of strife, I tell them this is how God works in my life.  At times, I question things if it came too easy.  I learn through struggle and thankful for it!

Struggle is not all bad if God has our best interest at heart!!!

We Are All Worthy of God’s Love

Have you ever done something or said something you wished you could take back? Do you live with regrets from your past? Do you worry about what others think of you if they knew your story?

I used to ponder and dwell on these questions daily and lived in the fear of being judged because of my past. Would people see me differently or tell me I’m not a Christian because I’m not perfect? I’ll admit I’m not perfect, never have been and never will be. Only God is perfect.

A few years back I used to look at myself in the mirror and saw no worth. I truly believed that I was ugly inside and out. I thought I was not worthy enough to be loved by anyone, even God. Yes, this sounds like a pity party and, in a lot ways, it was. I could not get past myself. The things I did and the words I said to my loved ones haunted me. I pushed everyone away so I could not hurt anyone else with my words and actions.

But, one day, my perspective on life, changed immediately. I was sitting at the car dealership waiting for my car to be serviced. A gentleman and a woman sat down next to me. The woman had a disability and struggled with day-to-day simple activities. She would get frustrated easily bacause she wanted to do something on her own. The man remained calm and kept on whispering in her ear: “You are worthy! You are beautiful! You are loved!” He continued to repeat these words to her until she calmed down and allowed him to help her.

Now, think about our Heavenly Father. He does the same thing with us! We try to do things in our own power because we are too prideful to ask for help. We cannot see past ourselves to see what God wants to do for us if we only let Him. So…What does He do?! He brings us close to Him and whispers in our ear: “You are worthy! You are beautiful! You are loved!” Wow!!!! God wraps His arms around us and tells us we are worthy and loved by Him! We are beautiful in His sight!

So what do you see when you look in the mirror? Someone who is not worthy to be loved? Someone who is too messed up to ever be forgiven from your past hurts and failures? Someone who is too ashamed to tell your story because you fear of being judged or even rejected?

Let me tell you something!!! God never rejects you and will always accept you for who you are! No matter what you have done or what you have said, nothing will ever separate you from the Almighty God! We have the choice to walk away from Him but God never walks away from us! He loves us unconditionally, no strings attached.

That day when I walked out of the car dealership, God overwhelmed me with His love and acceptance. He did not care about my past; He cared about me. I am His child and I am accepted by Him! And, you are His child and you are accepted by Him! We are all worthy of God’s love!!! So instead of beating ourselves up for the mistakes we have made; let’s embrace God’s love for us and accept His forgiveness over our lives!

Sometimes I Feel Like An Outcast

I have never been the type to follow the crowd, but, instead, I wanted to be unique and be true to myself.  I have always felt like I was different.  Not in a boastful way, but always seeking to be myself and not trying to be like others to fit in.  Now that I am grown, not much has changed.  I still strive to be myself no matter what is said about me.  This leads me into feeling like an outcast.

I did not do life like most people.  I decided to wait to get married and have a family so I could focus on my education and career.  I succeeded at both with the help of God leading me in the right direction.  I have no regrets on the decisions I have made in these areas.  I wanted to get to know who I was and better myself before bringing a spouse and children into my life.

Now that I am in my thirties and still single with no family of my own, I now feel like an outcast.  I do not relate to those around me my own age because they have families.  I seem to tune out others when they begin to talk about family situations because I do not understand where they are coming from.  I have never experienced that before in my life.

When I am in a group of people who have a spouse and children and the conversation turns into talking about their family life, I feel left out and not able to be a part of that conversation.  When I see a family in a store shopping together, my heart aches for having a family of my own.  When I hear childrens’ laughter or a couple hugging each other saying “I love you”, I yearn to hear that in my home.

I struggle with family, church, and work to fit in because most of them are married with children.  I struggle feeling like I am accepted because I do not relate to others.  In my church, I have moved around in several Bible Study groups and yet to find my place.  I usually sit by myself in church because I have no family to sit with.  In family gatherings, it is awkward to be the only one without a spouse.  The truth is, life gets lonely when you can’t share it with others.  I tend to isolate myself so the awkward feeling goes away.

My dream is to find the man that God has prepared for me and the children that God will bless me with.  I have always dreamed of being a wife and a mother.  I have always dreamed of giving my parents grandchildren for them to enjoy and love.  These desires are not selfish or even jealously.  It is not comparing my life with others.  My desires are to have what God has in store for me, whatever that may look like.  I know God will fulfill this desire in my heart one day, in His timing.  But until then, I will continue trusting and believing that God will continue to prepare me and my future husband until the day we meet.

I know I am not alone in feeling like an outcast and these emotions are real.  I was not going to share this, but God led me to write down how I have felt for a long time.  You may feel like an outcast for another reason and you are not alone.  Life may not be where you want it to be right now, but God has a plan and it’s perfect!  You just have to be patient and wait for God’s timing.

“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'” — Jeremiah 29:11

It’s All About the Journey!

Have you ever asked God, “When will he ever move me into a new place in life?” OR “When will I see blessings in my life?”  Most of the time we ask those type of questions out of frustration, despair, or even in the midst of confusion.

The truth is we miss it all together!  We miss the purpose of why God has kept us in that place!  It’s about the journey!!!  In the journey, we learn who we are and who God created us to be.   It’s not about focusing on the destination or how much further we have to walk to get to the finish line.

It’s All About:
Learning
Growing
Trusting

It may not be easy but worth it!!!
It’s worth hearing truth over your life!
It’s worth the tears and the frustrations to eventually find peace
and to become whole again through Christ!
It’s worth finding your true self!

THE JOURNEY MATTERS!!!!

Sometimes you are just walking forward mesmerized by its beauty and refreshing air of new things and new surroundings, you forget your worries and fears, and you learn, grow, change with each and every step you take!  You embrace change with ease and with comfort!  Peace overwhelms you and you cannot help but enjoy life to the fullest!  You take everything in and not taking anything for granted!  This journey is only possible with God guiding you and speaking over you every step of the way!  You find His peace in the journey!

During this journey, you are trusting God more and learning to let go of the past hurts, shame, and regrets.  You give full control of your life to God!  And before you know it — you made it!  You made it to the finish line as a conqueror!  Not beaten down, but full of hope and joy!

My story of my past may tell about heartache, rejection, hurts, losses, and loneliness, but God turned it into a powerful testimony of hope, love, and acceptance!

The journey is all about the healing process and being real with yourself that, “it’s okay not to be okay.” The finish line is all about the testimony!  What God has done in your life, and how he continues to bless you!

You see, the past does not have to define you!  It’s a part of you, but it does not have to cripple you forever!  The past cannot be redone or disappear, but it’s growth that you can learn from and be a stronger person for going through a difficult time. Do not let the past create insecurities and fears over your life! Do not believe satan’s lies!  Instead, realize that God wants to see you whole again and the past…well….it’s in the past!

God loves you unconditionally, no matter where you are in life!  You are never out of God’s reach to save you!  Take that journey with God and see how God heals you and changes you into His image!

The Meaning of the Holidays!

As we approach the holidays, what is the first thing that comes to mind?  The aroma of food cooking in the kitchen, watching football, travelling, time with family and friends, and so forth.  We all have family traditions that makes the holidays special.  These are all great memories to cherish for years to come.

As the holidays approach, I think of family I have not seen in awhile.  I reminisce of family members who I have lost throughout the years that made these holidays special.  I enjoy the laughter and the good food.  I enjoy the games we play around the table in the evening.

Most importantly, I thank God for a wonderful family that loves each other.  I am thankful that my family is close and want to spend time with each other.  During these times, we build relationships and continue to build memories that we cherish forever.

As we gather with family and friends, let’s spread the Good News about Jesus and not be ashamed of who we are in Christ!  Love each other and help each other make the holidays one to remember!

Happy Thanksgiving!!!